Penning My Thoughts
From my notebook – 4th August 2011
Today I’ve been consumed by a great urge to write. Write into a notebook. I dunno why but I’ve never been very successful writing/typing into my laptop. One reason being, I’ve never found a good software that has a right balance of online and offline support to act like an always-available-notebook. Another being, all those open windows that are so distracting. So anyways I felt it would be fun to yield to this wish and see where it goes.
I used to do a lot of writing while at school. Now, though, I usually avoid writing of all kind unless it has a ‘real’ purpose. This is because my time is split between managing my house, caring for my son and working on my pet project. But today I will just let my intuition take over. Of late I find that my intuition is most often right. What is most surprising is that the moment I took my pen in my hand, I feel so refreshed and the tiredness that seemed to be clogging my mind evaporates away. May be I should write more. Maybe I should listen to my intuition a little more and that might really help me handle the restlessness I occasionally feel.
We’ve been doing a pet project for sometime now (monstrous in resources though!). Its like holding a candle in the dark. I know I need to push forward but I see only a few paces at a time. But i wholly enjoy it and my intuition says it will work. Time will validate that!
Now I feel like blog posting all that I wrote and so here it is!
PS: The feel of my pen moving smoothly on paper producing tracing out my feelings as text is so amazing!
Could it be the very act of “focusing” that helped you relax (rather than intuition)?
> The feel of my pen moving smoothly on paper producing tracing out my feelings as text is so amazing!
Imagine if you can “attend” to your feelings like that even when not writing!
More like, there is something that you want to do sub-consciously but you resist it or even go into denial because of other stuff you ‘need’ to do. So when you eventually get down to do it, you give release to some long stifled wish. That gives you great relief.